::mood jiwang mlm ni::

i still remeber first time when i saw you. you smile to me and made my heart beat so quickly. i fallen in love with you in my first sight. you give me a lot of happiness. but i know you never love me. so, i never show my feeling to you.

ingatkah kamu, ketika aku bertemu dengan mu kau begitu baik padaku. sehingga ku pertahankan perasaanku padamu. hingga suatu saat aku bertemu denganmu lagi, lagi dan lagi. senyuman dan kebaikan sikapmu padaku membuatku ingin sekali lebih mengenalmu. tapi harapan ku ini salah, begitupun dengan perasaanku.

aku tahu,, seorang sepertiku tidak akan pernah mendapatkan hati darimu.

untuk menatapmu saja hatiku begitu rapuh. jiwaku bergetar melihat matamu. hanya terdiam yang bisa aku lakukan ketika tak sengaja aku berani menatap matamu.

hanya dirimu yang mampu mengubah jiwa dan ragaku.

aku takut ketika aku menatap matamu semua perasaanku terbongkar. aku takut ketika ku berbicara padaku kau menjauh dariku. selamanya akan ku pendam hanya untuk menjaga perasaanmu, agar kau tak membenciku.

kau takkan pernah tahu, setiap hari hatiku rindu menantimu.

kau takkan pernah tahu, setiap hari aku kehilangan akal sehatku.

kau takkan pernah tahu, setiap hari aku memikirkanmu.

kau takkan pernah tahu, setiap hari aku berdoa untukmu.

kau takkan pernah tahu, setiap hari aku meminta padan-Nya agar kau selalu terjaga.

dan kau takkan pernah tahu bahwa aku tulus melakukan itu.

Smile so the tears won't fall.

Laugh like you don't hurt at all.

Fake it so he'll never know,

you still haven't let him go.

Love comes to those who still hope

although they've been disappointed,

to those who still believe

although they've been betrayed,

to those who still love

although they've been hurt before.

I won't forget the day

we met or the day we kissed.

The sky may fall and the stars may too,

but in the end, I will still love you ...

I will love you all my life

and when I die I will still love you

through eternity and beyond.

And I know it might sound crazy,

but after all that, I still love you.

You wanna come back in my life.

But now there is something I have to do.

I have to tell the one that I once adored,

that they can't have my love no more,

because my heart can't take no more lies,

And my eyes are all out of tears.

Tired of trying.

Sick of crying;

yeah I'm smiling,

but inside I'm dying.

Break my heart, destroy my soul

and leave me crying,

I'd still love you and

I don't expect you to love me in return.

True love is when

you've been able to ride

on the bumpy sea of problems,

glide on the stormy sea of fights,

and still love each other

with every ounce of your heart.

I just want one day to go by

where I'm not pretending to be happy.

I'am still loving you...